...The Flu [Update]

If you remember in my last post I said something about if we weren't careful I would get pneumonia. Well guess what? I got pneumonia! Mom decided that since my cough was only getting worse that I needed to go back to the doctor. Well I went, they listened to my lungs again, and came to the conclusion that I needed to have a chest X-ray to decide if it was pneumonia or not. So after we left the doctor we went to the local hospital and I got the X-ray. But before leaving the doctor's office, the doctor told us that we needed to come back on Thursday afternoon so we could go over the results of the X-ray. So we went home after the X-ray. I woke up Thursday feeling great! Well, kinda! I was feeling a little bit better than the day before which wouldn't take much! So I decided that I wanted to go back to school on Friday. I talked to my mom and convinced her that it would be academically the best thing to do. She said that if Dr. Khattab said that I could go back then I could. Well we go to the doctor's office and wait about 1.5 hours and then go back to the waiting room and sit and wait about 10 more minutes. The doctor comes in and is reminded that I'm there to review and X-ray and he goes to check the results. He then comes back and listens to my lungs, asks how the cough is and then says, "The reason you are having such a terrible time coughing is because you have pneumonia!" I wanted to cry after this statement because I knew what that meant! Hospitalization. He proceeds to tell me that since I had the flu, it had weakened my body which allowed for bacteria to get in my lungs and set up an infection. He then asked me if I would go to the hospital for 2 days. I said yes, and he told me that if I didn't go to the hospital I would be sick for at least 12 days. He also told me that I was the first reported person to have the flu and get pneumonia in the county! Go me! That's what I do best! I'm always the odd ball out, in statistics I think they call those things outliers! Well, after my doctor set up my stay at prison, I mean, the hospital! My mom and I left, went home and packed my bags!

We arrived at the hospital at 5:40 and I got in my room at 8:30! That was a long wait in the ER waiting room. I was placed in droplet precautions, which means that any person that would be within 3 feet of me would have to wear a mask.[actually this is the color of the sign that was on my door. But I didn't find that out till I left because I wasn't allowed to leave my room!] I just learned about that in my nursing class. I was there for about 40 hours give or take a few. I went through 4 bags of IV fluids and 4 or 5 bags of antibiotics. I was able to come home, however, I am still taking antibiotics by mouth and an inhaler. I'm really glad to be home even though I'm really tired. Although one thing I have learned after 2 stays in the hospital, you don't get much rest; between the beds and the health care team coming in rest is impossible! Although after night one my doctor asked me how I slept and I said not very good. He asked why and I said because people kept coming in. He told me that he would put a note in my chart saying not to wake me up if I'm sleeping! Oh that was great! I was actually able to sleep last night! No midnight breathing treatments. No midnight vital sign check. It was lovely. Although I did have one interruption around 5 this morning, my IV machine started beeping and that was really annoying. I had to call the nurse and ask her to come make it stop. I was really happy to sleep all night! It wasn't my bed and it was really small but staying asleep all night is something I'm really grateful for! I'm also really happy to get that IV out of my hand! Today just before I left one of my respiratory therapist stepped on my IV tube and it pulled on my hand, OUCH!!! Hospital food here isn't that great! My friends called me and talked to me! I was really happy about that because I didn't have alot of visitors. Actually only 2 and they were there to give me a blessing. Nobody really wanted to come to my room because I was in droplet precautions and all of my friends were either sick with the flu or just getting over the flu!

I think my most favorite thing about being out is that I was able to see the outside and go to it! It does really exist. It's not just a figment of my imagination, it's not just a folk tale they talk about, or a moving picture on my wall! I'm really happy to be home! I can't wait to sleep all night in my own bed!!

Goodnight and salud to everyone!

[Salud means good health!!]

The Flu...

Well, I was diagnosed yesterday with the flu. I've never had the flu before so it's pretty bad. Although I have to say that they gave me this medicine called Tamiflu and it works miracles. Before I took it I felt horrible, now I feel ok. I'm not saying I feel great but I feel better! I will probably be able to go back to school on Thursday! I will have TONS of homework. I know that I will have 2 tests, 2 essays, and lots of math homework. That is very nerve racking but I need to get well before I go back so I don't get something worse! And we have to watch my flu because I have asthma and when you have asthma and you get the flu it can cause respitory infections. I currently have bronchitis on top of the flu but if we aren't careful I could get pnemonia. I can't wait to get rid of this cough! And there is speculation that it isn't seasonal flu but that it could be swine flu! Isn't that great!! Oh well...! It's kinda wierd because I have the flu and 2 of my really good friends have the flu too! We can't go back until the same day! We have joked about being sick together and how much better that would be! I think it would be tons better!! Oh well...I will work on some homework tomorrow, then get ready to go back unless my tempeture spikes again!

Sicker than a dog and getting worse!

I am so sick! I feel horrible! I have homework I need to do but I feel terrible! I went to our ball game on Friday night, it was like 38 degrees outside and it was slushy outside! I didn't think that I would get sick! But then I woke up on Saturday feeling not so great! I went on with my day! Got ready for homecoming and then went there. As the night went on I felt worse! I woke up this morning and I thought I was dying! I might have the flu but I really hope not because that means missing a week of school and I can't do that!! I really need to only have bronchitis or strep! But I don't think I have strep but bronchitis maybe! I've been coughing like a fool! I even took some medicine for it and it isn't helping. I continue to cough up organs!!! I wish I could snap my fingers and get well! Almost all of my friends are sick!! It stinks major!

Unrequitted no more! Only in my dreams!

Ok guys this post is going to be a bit intense but I feel like I need to know some of these things! I'm just warning you...it's not bad just sensitive!

So me being the goody-two-shoes Mormon that I am, I didn't date until I was 16 then my first date wasn't until July before my 17 birthday(which by the way, my birthday is Aug. 11). I was almost 17. I really struggle with guys. My dad left my mom and I when I was 3 and married another lady with a daughter just a couple years older than me. Once I was finally old enough to understand this, I always felt like a model that wasn't good enough so he traded me in. Well several years have passed and now I understand that it was his loss and he is the one that missed out not me, however, the thought still comes to me all the time, "If my dad didn't love me when I was my cutest then why would any other male love me, for that matter even like me!" I have come to learn over the years that I really am a nice person and fun to be around but that took years to learn. Now that I'm OK in that department, I really would like to actually date somebody! I don't think that a random double date planned in 5 minutes doesn't really count!(especially considering I grew up with the guy and he had a GF) Any how, There is this guy at school and I really like him. I really would like to get to know him better but because I'm so nervous around guys and I'm afraid that guys are utterly repulsed by me then I won't talk to him!! I talked to him for the first time today and he is the one who started the conversation. I got his number last night but I'm really afraid to text him! My Friends say just wait, be patient. But in that time that I wait I just kinda get down, feel like I am utterly repulsive and shouldn't try anymore! It seems now days that everybody has somebody, except me! I really, honestly, in all truthfulness, don't know how to act around guys. If we are talking about cars, sports, or hunting, yeah, I can do that but to even think about talking to a guy that I like scares the heebie-geebies out of me! It absolutely terrifies me! Actually to be honest the idea of talking to this guy makes me feel so bad, I feel like I might just ralf! It is miserable. When I think about a guy liking me, I don't even think that's possible! It's never happened before and it seems like it's one of those things that only happens to other people!

I think my biggest fear is that when I go to college there might be a guy that would like me but since I don't know how to act around guys I would just avoid him and then when confronted I would do what I always do when I talk about this subject and I would cry, making me feel like an even bigger loser! I just don't want the first time that I really date somebody to be when I'm in college and I don't have a clue as to what I'm doing!!

It will all be OK in time, I know but until then, : '(

Parents=Good yet frustrating!!!

So my BYU-I application comes out in less than 4 hours. I'm so excited! And as you read in a previous post, I've been reading the blog of the MBP, well tonight I was reading their latest post and my mom came in and she was like, "I don't like that title!" I know it wasn't the best but I would think she would trust me to make good decisions and know what's good and what's bad! I am intelligent! Well I've decided where I'm going to live when I go to college and I'm really excited! I learned how to get ancestor's names temple ready. I'm going to do that soon! I have a wonderful trip on Friday! We are going to Morehead to for a haunted house and then a bonfire with other youth from the Morehead ward! I'm super excited, even though I'm terribly afraid of haunted houses and anything scary but I will go!! I'm excited to and hang out with more LDS youth! We don't get that often!! Then Saturday, is homecoming! I don't have a date but that's ok!! I'm ready to go and have tons of fun!! I really can't wait till then!! It will be lots of fun!! I'm so ready for college!! It won't be the easiest ride but it will be so fun!!!

I'm going to bed!!
NIGHT!!!

Free manis, pedis, hair cuts, and tanning...

After reading a friend of mine's post about moving off campus in the spring, i felt the urge to check out off campus housing! I found these apartments that are owned by this company and if you live in any of their apartments you get so many ammenities! You get a free hair salon, free manicures and pedicures, free tanning, free party kitchens, your own private room. Clubhouses, and nice lounges! I mean if I'm paying lots of money for housing I would rather have lots of extras and not have to pay for things to do! I mean it doesn't get much better than that!! I so can't wait! Free manis, pedis, hair cuts, tanning!! yeah!! that's a deal baby!!

Two roads diverge!

Today I attempted to stick to my schedule that I made for myself but it's 8:43 and I haven't even started writing in my journal or anything! But I'm going to make sure I get in bed on time because I want to be happy and not grouchy bc I'm tired! Anyways I have spent some time doing something productive...

I got an e-mail today from a college that as been sending me stuff since my freshman year. It is a really great college and it is known for it's medical education. Tulane Univeristy in New Orleans,LA. So I decided that I didn't have anything to loose, they are offering me a free application. I'm going to take it! I have no back up plan in case I don't get into BYU-I! I know I will but I will be prepared just in case! Now all I have to do is take the application to my counselor tomorrow and then everything will be ok! My application comes out for BYU-I on Thursday! I can't wait to fill out that application!

Today I was lost in reading posts from this blog called Confessions from a Mormon Bachelor Pad! I believe that it's real because I don't think guys could be that creative! (Not meaning to doubt you guys, you are great!) And since I've never dated anybody and I will be leaving for a place full of mormon boys I decided htat it would be a good idea to have an idea of how they think! And if I know what makes them tick then I won't try to analyze everything that a guy does! Reading this blog makes me realize how real they are. It really has changed how I see them, not in a bad way, just in a realistic way!! I love reading it even though sometimes they aren't the nicest!! But I really feel like it is a good way to prepare myself! If I hadn't read some of these things I think that I would've hated guys forever, I think!! I'm really excited for life and what's to come!!! And I recommend checking out there blog, just remember, they are being honest and it is anaymous! I appreciate their honesty, it helps girls know how their brains work! And that is a mystery yet unsolved my too many!!! hehe!!! Good night guys!!!

Not that great in reality!

I finally just finished my homework that I've had a week to do! I know, shame on me for waiting till Sunday to do it but I was just wondering...why does everyone think Shakespeare was so great! Really, I hated this play we had to read. Not because it was boring but because there was way to much of Segmuind Freud. I know...I spelled his name wrong but you get the point! Any how, I'm done. Oh dear I just said any how! What are we going to do these country folks are rubbing off on me!!! Hehehehehe!!!

Well today at church was fun! It was fast and testimony meeting and I got up to go bear my testimony and Josie came too! It was kinda wierd because seeing that I'm not a mom yet I've never had to take a child up to the pulpit! But it went well! Then after sunday school myself and the other 2 laurels were called to be the nursery leaders! It will be tons of fun! I'm really excited! I love little children and to have a calling...yeah!!!

That's about it for my Sunday! I think I'm going to take a shower, eat dinner, then go to bed! I'm so tired!!

Sorting back to the past...

Since we've had this last week off my mom had a major crusade about getting unpacked so that we can get the things put where they go, and while I agree that we should do so, she was very rushed about it! Since she wanted it all done she put all of my stuff in my room, including my scrapbooking stuff. And as I was organizing my scrapbooking stuff putting paper in one drawer and stickers in another, I started to go through the stuff that needs to be scrapbooked. As I looked at it, I just felt like I went back, back to a time where things were easy and simple. If I needed something most likely my best friend already knew what was going on because we saw each other practically every day of the week. She knew how to help because she knew what was going on in all fronts. She was wonderful, she would stay up late to write me notes so that I could quietly read her suggestions that were might I add quite wonderful and I could keep those suggestions. Now even some 4 or 5 years later those simple suggestions mean so much to me! I wrote a poem while in 8th grade, I had intended to send it in to the BYU writing contest but I didn't. I let my english teacher read it and she thought that it was lovely. She had also been my english teacher in 7th grade, and in 7th grade I wrote a few poems which were submitted for a contest and I think 2 won or maybe it was just 1. Anyways, she wrote a note on the back of the poem from 8th grade and to read what she wrote is so uplifting. It gives me hope when I don't think there is any! Then my best friend made me a scrapbook for if the time came when I would move and well to our dismay it did, so I'm glad she made the scrapbook. But in that scrapbook besides pictures from lots of fun times was a map of our life. It was so creative and with that map came a story. And after reading that story, I really kind wish things could go back to shopping pond, or early highschool hills, even hurricane range or pretend pass. Life seemed easy then but I know that in all things there is opposition and that opposition will make us stronger if we let it! I know that in a few years I'll look back and say that I was a wimp. I was being silly about the things that went on and the so called struggles I claim to have but knowing that kinda makes easier because I know that I will look back with that same nastalgia!

My best friend is truly the greatest in the world. We always dreamed of going to high school together and having the same classes and enjoying every minute together! Unfortunately we only got 2 years of high school together and then none of our classes were together. We shared a locker but we rarely saw each other because of the times of our class and their location. Now we are seniors in high school making the best of it sadly on our own. And I think the hardest part is that another one of our dreams was to go to college together! We often said even if I moved we would still go to college together and that would help make the 2 years past faster. But now the two of us are looking at going to different colleges which are roughly 4-6 hours apart, I think! I know I can make it on my own but it's so much more fun and a whole lot easier with her. I know that I wouldn't be as shy and I wouldn't be afraid to go to activities! But I want what's best for her and she is so lucky to have an amazing ACT score that I can only dream of and she should go to the college that we've both dreamed of. I don't want her to settle for less because of me! She's taught me so much. And really in all reality she has essentially made me who I am. She is truly the greatest, wisest, smartest, most humble person I know! I'm just greatful that we could become such good friends even the best of friends over the 7 years! I know things will work out the way the Lord wants them too, and I take comfort in that.

11...10...9...

Here lately my attention has been brought to college and of course application is a big part! My application comes out in 6 days! I'm really excited! For those of you that don't know, I'm planning to attend Brigham Young University-Idaho. It is in Rexburg,ID! It is a 30 hour drive from my house and a 6 hour plus plane ride! Of course, with application and admission comes the necessities of life on your own. It's so exciting that I am buying my own dishes, my own towels, my own bed liens! I love that I'm almost on my own. My mom has raised me and helped me and taught me right from wrong and how to make smart decisions! I can't wait to be able to use those skills she's taught me! And as my senior year is about to hit mid-way, I'm realizing habits that I need to break and some others that I need to make. I definitely need to learn to go to bed on time. When I don't have to go to school or be up for seminary I go to bed around 1 or 2 A.M. And I put homework off till the last minute! And I have to change that before I go to college because if I don't get my homework done I fear that it will hinder me in my attempt at a social life! I've been reading a friend of mine's blog and I get so excited every time I read it! I can't wait!

I've often been told that I need to enjoy the moments that I have now. Don't wish my time away! But I am enjoying my time! My senior year is a blast! But I can't wait to go to college!! I can't wait for all that fun!! And I can't wait to see how well I can make it on my own!!

I have roughly 10 months until I leave for college!! I'm counting down the months until I leave and the days until my application comes out!!

P.S.
I am a smart young adult and I've found books that will help me! I can't wait to get them and read them!! I'm saving like crazy and lovin' life!! What more can you ask for!!

Don't follow me I'm lost too!

Yesterday, I was fortunate enough to be able to attend a Justin Moore concert for free. It was lots of fun...it was my first concert ever and when I got home, I felt different. I don't know how to explain it and I don't know why but it was weird. I wanted to get to know Justin Moore and I guess be his really good friend, I seem to like to be people's friends. And yet I felt a little empty. It was really weird. I also thought wow, I just saw a famous person in person...he was approximately 50 feet from me. And yet in a way that still didn't bother me! Then today I got a call from McDonald's and they asked me to come in for an interview tomorrow at 5. And yes I did apply, they didn't just call me out of the blue. And if I get this job, I will be able to get a car and have plenty of spending money and I will be able to start putting money in savings for college, but at the same time I'm scared, lost and confused. I don't know what to do. I don't really want to work fast food but I've applied at 5 different places and McDonald's is the only one who has called back. I really want a car and to be able to have money to spend and save but I don't know what I should do...I guess the only answer is to pray. Russel M. Nelson told us today that pray is the best communication with the Lord. It doesn't even require hardware, software, or monthly service fees. So I guess I will pray. But I guess another question of mine is why do we feel like this sometimes? Maybe it's to encourage us to pray and to talk to Heavenly Father. Maybe it's that "spiritual heart biopsy" Brent H. Neilson talked about.

Well I think after writing it out I've decided what I need to do. I will pray. I am so glad that I was able to listen to conference today. It was a blast!! And I'm grateful for the opportunities that Heavenly Father gives me to kneel and talk with Him!!

Flight of life...it's as easy as landing on the Hudson!!

Today, Capt. Chesley Sullenburger returned to the air. Every time I think about what he did, I'm amazed. I even sometimes get teary eyed. I find it so moving that he did such a heroic act but always said he was just doing his job. I consider him a hero but more importantly an example. He just did what he was taught. I'm sure in class he didn't doodle on his papers and when given the opportunity to practice his flying skills he didn't just sit back and say "Oh, I'll know what to do when the time comes." I just think how easy it is for us to land on our personal "Hudson". I know that in my CNA class I could take advantage of the time my teacher gives me to practice and just like "Sully" had a plane full of people and their families counting on him, he knew what he was doing because he wasn't cutting corners. In my future profession I will have lots of sick people and their families counting on me. I can learn a lesson from Sully and remember not to cut corners and take my time. Because time now might give people more time later!! I hope I can perform as well as Sully if the time ever comes!!! And I hope we can all land on our own personal "Hudson"!!!