Two roads diverge!

Today I attempted to stick to my schedule that I made for myself but it's 8:43 and I haven't even started writing in my journal or anything! But I'm going to make sure I get in bed on time because I want to be happy and not grouchy bc I'm tired! Anyways I have spent some time doing something productive...

I got an e-mail today from a college that as been sending me stuff since my freshman year. It is a really great college and it is known for it's medical education. Tulane Univeristy in New Orleans,LA. So I decided that I didn't have anything to loose, they are offering me a free application. I'm going to take it! I have no back up plan in case I don't get into BYU-I! I know I will but I will be prepared just in case! Now all I have to do is take the application to my counselor tomorrow and then everything will be ok! My application comes out for BYU-I on Thursday! I can't wait to fill out that application!

Today I was lost in reading posts from this blog called Confessions from a Mormon Bachelor Pad! I believe that it's real because I don't think guys could be that creative! (Not meaning to doubt you guys, you are great!) And since I've never dated anybody and I will be leaving for a place full of mormon boys I decided htat it would be a good idea to have an idea of how they think! And if I know what makes them tick then I won't try to analyze everything that a guy does! Reading this blog makes me realize how real they are. It really has changed how I see them, not in a bad way, just in a realistic way!! I love reading it even though sometimes they aren't the nicest!! But I really feel like it is a good way to prepare myself! If I hadn't read some of these things I think that I would've hated guys forever, I think!! I'm really excited for life and what's to come!!! And I recommend checking out there blog, just remember, they are being honest and it is anaymous! I appreciate their honesty, it helps girls know how their brains work! And that is a mystery yet unsolved my too many!!! hehe!!! Good night guys!!!

Not that great in reality!

I finally just finished my homework that I've had a week to do! I know, shame on me for waiting till Sunday to do it but I was just wondering...why does everyone think Shakespeare was so great! Really, I hated this play we had to read. Not because it was boring but because there was way to much of Segmuind Freud. I know...I spelled his name wrong but you get the point! Any how, I'm done. Oh dear I just said any how! What are we going to do these country folks are rubbing off on me!!! Hehehehehe!!!

Well today at church was fun! It was fast and testimony meeting and I got up to go bear my testimony and Josie came too! It was kinda wierd because seeing that I'm not a mom yet I've never had to take a child up to the pulpit! But it went well! Then after sunday school myself and the other 2 laurels were called to be the nursery leaders! It will be tons of fun! I'm really excited! I love little children and to have a calling...yeah!!!

That's about it for my Sunday! I think I'm going to take a shower, eat dinner, then go to bed! I'm so tired!!

Sorting back to the past...

Since we've had this last week off my mom had a major crusade about getting unpacked so that we can get the things put where they go, and while I agree that we should do so, she was very rushed about it! Since she wanted it all done she put all of my stuff in my room, including my scrapbooking stuff. And as I was organizing my scrapbooking stuff putting paper in one drawer and stickers in another, I started to go through the stuff that needs to be scrapbooked. As I looked at it, I just felt like I went back, back to a time where things were easy and simple. If I needed something most likely my best friend already knew what was going on because we saw each other practically every day of the week. She knew how to help because she knew what was going on in all fronts. She was wonderful, she would stay up late to write me notes so that I could quietly read her suggestions that were might I add quite wonderful and I could keep those suggestions. Now even some 4 or 5 years later those simple suggestions mean so much to me! I wrote a poem while in 8th grade, I had intended to send it in to the BYU writing contest but I didn't. I let my english teacher read it and she thought that it was lovely. She had also been my english teacher in 7th grade, and in 7th grade I wrote a few poems which were submitted for a contest and I think 2 won or maybe it was just 1. Anyways, she wrote a note on the back of the poem from 8th grade and to read what she wrote is so uplifting. It gives me hope when I don't think there is any! Then my best friend made me a scrapbook for if the time came when I would move and well to our dismay it did, so I'm glad she made the scrapbook. But in that scrapbook besides pictures from lots of fun times was a map of our life. It was so creative and with that map came a story. And after reading that story, I really kind wish things could go back to shopping pond, or early highschool hills, even hurricane range or pretend pass. Life seemed easy then but I know that in all things there is opposition and that opposition will make us stronger if we let it! I know that in a few years I'll look back and say that I was a wimp. I was being silly about the things that went on and the so called struggles I claim to have but knowing that kinda makes easier because I know that I will look back with that same nastalgia!

My best friend is truly the greatest in the world. We always dreamed of going to high school together and having the same classes and enjoying every minute together! Unfortunately we only got 2 years of high school together and then none of our classes were together. We shared a locker but we rarely saw each other because of the times of our class and their location. Now we are seniors in high school making the best of it sadly on our own. And I think the hardest part is that another one of our dreams was to go to college together! We often said even if I moved we would still go to college together and that would help make the 2 years past faster. But now the two of us are looking at going to different colleges which are roughly 4-6 hours apart, I think! I know I can make it on my own but it's so much more fun and a whole lot easier with her. I know that I wouldn't be as shy and I wouldn't be afraid to go to activities! But I want what's best for her and she is so lucky to have an amazing ACT score that I can only dream of and she should go to the college that we've both dreamed of. I don't want her to settle for less because of me! She's taught me so much. And really in all reality she has essentially made me who I am. She is truly the greatest, wisest, smartest, most humble person I know! I'm just greatful that we could become such good friends even the best of friends over the 7 years! I know things will work out the way the Lord wants them too, and I take comfort in that.

11...10...9...

Here lately my attention has been brought to college and of course application is a big part! My application comes out in 6 days! I'm really excited! For those of you that don't know, I'm planning to attend Brigham Young University-Idaho. It is in Rexburg,ID! It is a 30 hour drive from my house and a 6 hour plus plane ride! Of course, with application and admission comes the necessities of life on your own. It's so exciting that I am buying my own dishes, my own towels, my own bed liens! I love that I'm almost on my own. My mom has raised me and helped me and taught me right from wrong and how to make smart decisions! I can't wait to be able to use those skills she's taught me! And as my senior year is about to hit mid-way, I'm realizing habits that I need to break and some others that I need to make. I definitely need to learn to go to bed on time. When I don't have to go to school or be up for seminary I go to bed around 1 or 2 A.M. And I put homework off till the last minute! And I have to change that before I go to college because if I don't get my homework done I fear that it will hinder me in my attempt at a social life! I've been reading a friend of mine's blog and I get so excited every time I read it! I can't wait!

I've often been told that I need to enjoy the moments that I have now. Don't wish my time away! But I am enjoying my time! My senior year is a blast! But I can't wait to go to college!! I can't wait for all that fun!! And I can't wait to see how well I can make it on my own!!

I have roughly 10 months until I leave for college!! I'm counting down the months until I leave and the days until my application comes out!!

P.S.
I am a smart young adult and I've found books that will help me! I can't wait to get them and read them!! I'm saving like crazy and lovin' life!! What more can you ask for!!

Don't follow me I'm lost too!

Yesterday, I was fortunate enough to be able to attend a Justin Moore concert for free. It was lots of fun...it was my first concert ever and when I got home, I felt different. I don't know how to explain it and I don't know why but it was weird. I wanted to get to know Justin Moore and I guess be his really good friend, I seem to like to be people's friends. And yet I felt a little empty. It was really weird. I also thought wow, I just saw a famous person in person...he was approximately 50 feet from me. And yet in a way that still didn't bother me! Then today I got a call from McDonald's and they asked me to come in for an interview tomorrow at 5. And yes I did apply, they didn't just call me out of the blue. And if I get this job, I will be able to get a car and have plenty of spending money and I will be able to start putting money in savings for college, but at the same time I'm scared, lost and confused. I don't know what to do. I don't really want to work fast food but I've applied at 5 different places and McDonald's is the only one who has called back. I really want a car and to be able to have money to spend and save but I don't know what I should do...I guess the only answer is to pray. Russel M. Nelson told us today that pray is the best communication with the Lord. It doesn't even require hardware, software, or monthly service fees. So I guess I will pray. But I guess another question of mine is why do we feel like this sometimes? Maybe it's to encourage us to pray and to talk to Heavenly Father. Maybe it's that "spiritual heart biopsy" Brent H. Neilson talked about.

Well I think after writing it out I've decided what I need to do. I will pray. I am so glad that I was able to listen to conference today. It was a blast!! And I'm grateful for the opportunities that Heavenly Father gives me to kneel and talk with Him!!

Flight of life...it's as easy as landing on the Hudson!!

Today, Capt. Chesley Sullenburger returned to the air. Every time I think about what he did, I'm amazed. I even sometimes get teary eyed. I find it so moving that he did such a heroic act but always said he was just doing his job. I consider him a hero but more importantly an example. He just did what he was taught. I'm sure in class he didn't doodle on his papers and when given the opportunity to practice his flying skills he didn't just sit back and say "Oh, I'll know what to do when the time comes." I just think how easy it is for us to land on our personal "Hudson". I know that in my CNA class I could take advantage of the time my teacher gives me to practice and just like "Sully" had a plane full of people and their families counting on him, he knew what he was doing because he wasn't cutting corners. In my future profession I will have lots of sick people and their families counting on me. I can learn a lesson from Sully and remember not to cut corners and take my time. Because time now might give people more time later!! I hope I can perform as well as Sully if the time ever comes!!! And I hope we can all land on our own personal "Hudson"!!!

Adventures of an almost homecoming queen

This year I decided to sign up to run for homecoming queen. So most would think this would be easy as lemon pie, however, it was anything but easy. The friday before our homecoming game we found out who was going to need an escort for the game. I was smart, I went ahead and asked a guy and he agreed. Then we are going through the next week, Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday are all good. Actually, on Wednesday I went to Cincinatti,OH for a meeting with CES leaders and got more info about BYU-I. We didn't get back until 12 that night so I didn't go to school on Thursday. And since our school allows 2 college days for all seniors and I'm not going out to Idaho I was ok using mine on that fireside. Anyways, my mom subbed at the high school on Thursday and since I was not there she was asked to fill out the information sheet that would be read aloud to the stadium and we she comes to pick me up she tells me the guy who was suppose to escort me was no longer going to but he was going to find somebody. Might I add that the game was in less than 24 hours. I get to school the next day, figure out who this other guy is and I'm ok with it. All is well, I'm happy. I knew it would be an experience of a lifetime. So it wasn't that big of a deal...until in 5th period I found out that I didn't have an escort. At our school we have a 10 minute break in between 5th and 6th periods, during this break I went and talked to the teacher in charge of homecoming festivities and she told me that they found somebody to fill in. It turns out that it was my friends boyfriend. I was grateful she lent her boyfriend to me for the 15 minutes during half time. He saved the day because I was ready to just tell the teacher to forget it, I was dropping out. It was a lot of fun, my feet were killing me and I loved every minute of it. And as you read in the title of this post, I didn't win. But I loved it. My neighbrs, Ricky and Karen sent me flowers and their love. I loved that night. It was so much fun! I would do it again in heartbeat, even if I knew I wasn't going to win. I won more than a sash, flowers, or a crown. I won some confidence in myself.

The top picture is of me and my escort Zach.

The picture next to it is of my friends: Savannah, Kandyce(won senior princess), Amy

The next 2 pictures are of me...note the shoes...that's why my feet hurt. But I loved it!!!